The other day I was at work, staring off into space, thinking about all of the sh*t I've put my body through and I literally raised my eyebrows, shook my head and thanked my body. I mean think about it... the countless all-nighters you've pulled in school and as an athlete, the all-nighters straight to practice (!!!); all the alcohol and whatever other substances that have gone into your body; the emotional trauma your brain, and thus your body, has endured... the list legitimately goes on and on. Your body is truly a miracle and it should be regarded as such, but it's so easy to think of it negatively because of all the sh*t we see all around us.
When I was 15, I was diagnosed with Anorexia Nervosa and I struggled with it deeply for 7 years. It's an all consuming state of mind that permeates into every aspect of your being. I didn't get much sleep or proper nutrition into my body for a very long time and yet, day in and day out, my body would do absolutely everything I told it to. Granted, it didn't perform to the best of its abilities, but it did perform, which is still pretty damn impressive if you think about it.
I believe that once you've had an eating disorder it never truly goes away, but that you become much better at managing those destructive thoughts that brought you to the eating disorder in the first place. Now let me tell you, it took me a very, very long time to get to where I am today and I thank everyone and anyone that has helped me with this issue and I especially want to thank my boyfriend for constantly positively encouraging me to treat my body kinldy (woo alliteration! ::nerd alert::) I don't want this post to be about me or my past, but I thought I should just give a bit of background, and if you want me to go into more detail, please leave a comment or e-mail and let me know.
In saying all of this, I have been hypercritical of not only my body, but other bodies, as well. I've spent countless hours in the mirror, on the internet, just staring and staring and JUDGING myself and other women a men publicly humiliating and attacking each other because of their appearance, it disgusts me. I was at the doctor the other day and saw Dr. Oz interviewing Roosh Vale-whateverthefuck (I hate giving any publicity or nod to him because I hate that people are even going to his site and condoning his behavior, so sue me), a man with a blog and YouTube channel who came up with a fat shaming week post that he puts up consistently. He encourages people to take photos of random people/strangers that they find physically disgusting and put them on the internet with a hashtag for others to comment on and laugh at...
I went on his site just so that I could see what he was doing and I was filled with so much rage and compassion it brought tears to my eyes. I can't even imagine how I would feel if I pulled up that page and I saw a photo of myself or of my sister or mother or daughter or best friend. It's heartbreaking that people are so insensitive toward other people's lives and feelings and it truly makes you wonder what the fu** this world is coming to. At this point, I'm ranting, but I just couldn't not comment on this subject. It hits too close to home and I guess I just wanted to talk about this and make sure that people are aware of what's going on in case you aren't already. Social media can be a blessing and a curse and when it's being used in the form of body shaming, it's pretty much a complete curse... but maybe it can still be turned around and we can still find some way to get something of merit out of this. To me, it's just to take the time to thank your body. Really meditate for a few minutes or whatever time you have and just be grateful for the body you have and thank it for everything it has done for you. The fact that you wake up everyday is a gift in itself and something to be thankful for; remember it can always be worse.
The bottom line is that if we can get past the surface of our bodies and really see them for what they actually are, which are incredibly beautiful vessels that are more intuitive and intelligent than we generally give them credit for, then we would be so beyond body shaming. We could all work together in creating a happier, more positive life for so many people.
However, I also think that some people are legitimate lost causes and if they want to continue this body shaming fu**ery, then just smile, graciously glide right by those assholes in that beautiful body of yours and pray that one day they'll understand.